Everyday when I wake up, and every night before I fall asleep, I think of you. It’s so sad to think that once you meant everything to me, and now, I can only sparingly think of you and try to get in touch. When we first started, I had a lot of time on my hands and and was stuck in a job where I didn’t feel I made a difference. You entered my life and slowly became my means of connecting with the world on a scale I couldn’t imagine and made me feel passionate about something.
The big shift in our relationship happened when I moved to London. The truth is that it became challenging to keep in touch. The life here really is fast and there isn’t really time for much else. My attention took a big turn from you to my career as it became my ultimate project – and this meant neglecting you. It’s not that I didn’t think of you, there was always that feeling and constant reminders that I had you, and I needed to do something about it – and I often did something about it, but it hasn’t been enough!
Now that I look back, I feel like I used you and this isn’t the feeling I want you to have. You mean a lot and the fact that you’re still here means so much… and of course, where else would you be as I continue the payment…
So in Adele’s famous words… Hello.
I am returning back to you, my dear blog – and this time I hope that we can continue our connection for longer and not have spells of no posts for months!
PS: for those of you who didn’t get it… let me know in the comments!